January 19, 2011
My New Favorite Thing - Siesta
I've been on an anti-depressant for 3 weeks now and I am not depressed anymore BUT I can't sleep at night. I am constantly waking up - every hour or half hour and I am not getting a good night's rest. BUT never fear as the anti-depressant keeps me awake during the day and feeling great until about 2:30 p.m. Then I crash.
I fell asleep in a chair today while reading the newspaper and awoke with drool coming out of the side of my mouth panicking as to what day it was, what time it was and was I supposed to be somewhere. I sat up and my dog sat up, looked at me and then she laid back down to nap.
I realized that it was Wednesday afternoon and I didn't need to be somewhere so I fell back asleep only to be awaken by the telephone. It was my husband. He needed a ride to pick up his truck from the mechanic. I am sure I sounded like I was drunk but I felt rested.
I have to laugh at myself because it is really funny. I have had to change my schedule and take advantage of the energy I have in the morning and early afternoon. Then I give myself permission to take a much needed nap if I need it and that keeps me going for the rest of the day.
I would never make it if I was working outside of the home as I don't know of an employer alive that would let an employee lay down and take a nap in the afternoon. Then again, maybe workers would be more productive if they all took a little Siesta.
Now I just have to harness the energy I have in the morning to get to work on the walls in the livingroom. I wouldn't trade my lack of sleep for how I was feeling last month for anything in the world. It is much better to have to take a nap and be happy, than to be awake and crying all the time.