I have not felt well for a couple of weeks. I began having overwhelming anxiety and panic attacks. It was horrible. After two weeks I called my doctor and he recommended going back on Paxil. Today it "kicked" in. So how did it affect our budget?
I went online and bought stuff that was just that -- stuff. I'm not sure what happened other than I was feeling so anxious and in my state of mind, it made sense that I needed this stuff. We are talking about around $100 worth of stuff.
I learned a lot about myself over the past two weeks. The first is that I will probably be on an anti-depressant for quite awhile which means that I must be careful and watch what I eat so I don't gain back the weight I lost. The second is that it is okay to be on an anti-depressant. The third is that I shouldn't have a credit card in my possession when I am feeling poorly.
So I need to come up with $100 over the next two weeks to pay for what I bought. A lot of it will come out of the grocery budget as we are eating out of the pantry and freezer.
Now this goes to show you that we all make mistakes, its just that you have to learn from your mistakes and move on. I look back on the last few weeks and it is as if I was a different person. I couldn't think straight, I was overwhelmed by intense anxiety and irrational fear and I couldn't cope very well.
Now I feel like my old self and it feels wonderful. This week I am planning on starting some sewing projects and getting out my knitting loom to start some knitting projects. I look forward to it.